For years every time I drank alcohol I blacked out and 'caused chaos' - until the day it almost killed me. Here's how I turned my life around

Amanda Goff's drinking problem creeped up on her. I would get blackout drunk every time and honestly I don't know how I am still alive,' she said. Amanda Goff had a drinking problem for ten years - but has not had a sip of alcohol for the last five and is feeling better than ever Amanda said she would be hungover for days at a time and had toxic thoughts when she was a drinker - she is pictured here after a night out 'I would be aggressive and start fights - I was completely dead inside,' she said. Amanda said she would drink on weekends - often enjoying a bottle of champagne before blacking out The 49-year-old told FEMAIL her bad relationship with alcohol went on for ten years - but admits the 'last three or four' were ridiculous Amanda, who was still working as Samantha X at the time, tried on and off for six months but couldn't kick her party girl habit. Another photo taken during the bad times - Amanda said she would cause chaos and her life was a complete mess She explained people with bi-polar often turn to drugs and alcohol as a form of self medication because it stops them from feeling all of their feelings.