Holly Madison recalls ‘traumatic’ first night with Hugh Hefner

Stay ahead of the curve with our weekly guide to the latest trends, fashion, relationships and more Stay ahead of the curve with our weekly guide to the latest trends, fashion, relationships and more Stay ahead of the curve with our weekly guide to the latest trends, fashion, relationships and more SIGN UP I would like to be emailed about offers, events and updates from The Independent. Read our privacy policy Former Playboy Bunny Holly Madison has said her first night with Hugh Hefner as one of his girlfriends was a “traumatic experience”. However, she was “wasted” once they had returned from the club, Madison said, adding that she was “not expecting to be the first one to go that night”. “And after it happened, I was just mortified and embarrassed and it had way more of an emotional impact on me than I thought it would.” Madison said she had “really looked up to” Hefner, but was “horrified” by the idea that others knew they had had sex. Everybody knows it happened.’ “I kind of all of a sudden felt like everybody was going to know about me, and I was horrified by it.” Madison published a tell-all book titled Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny in 2015.